{PROLOGUE}

preferred to be called: WEILING
years of existence: 16
school for the next few years: chij saint nicholas girls school
co-curiculum activity: artstic gymnsatics
i belong to the DONUTS (:

*loves:
{cookies
{chocolate
{fireflies
{canines
{clouds
{stars
{WANYING♥

*idolizes:
{Nadia Comeneci
{Oana Mihaela Ban
{Zhang Nan
{Alicia Sacramone
{Shayla Worley
{WANYING♥
{TAN YING JING my master lol

ipod
new leotards :)
get an individual for gym :/
have a hair cut
a new canvas shoe
watch gym shows LIVE
OONWANYING♥

BESTIES!}
ALEX!}
JUST!}
CHRIS!}
DAWN!}
AMANDA L!:)}
AMANDA G}
CATHLEEN}
EUGE :)}
SERENE}
AINSLIE!:)}
SUWEN!:)}
JESSLING}
JUSTINA!:)}
ADELINE F}
WEIYI!:)}
SHUWEN!:)}
NAT YEO!:)}
YINGHUI}
ESTHER}
JENNIFER}
YILIN}
LINGLING(:}
MEIMEI}
GILLIAN}
MINDI}
VICTIORIA}
VERONICA! :)}
ziying(: my favourite cousin! :)}
GRACE :)}
MY LJ !}
MY mini Junsu Feature}
TIFF :)}
JULIA! :)}
♥WANYING!♥}
linkies}

 

Afianne
37pence
Juvenile Casualty
Squared Pretties
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Then one day he catches you in your bathroom injecting yourself
Pills were not enough anymore
And your ‘friends’ sent you a new type of peace.

He grabs your wrist and starts yelling at you
But you don’t care cause it was already getting brighter and brighter by the second
He yells at you and tells you that he already knew for a while and he’s been taking away your stash as well as he can, and he’s been covering his mess
And he yells at you for making such a stupid mistake
But then he starts crying holding you into an embrace asking you

“Am I not enough Junsu-yah? Am I not enough for you?!”

The next day you tell him you don’t remember so he doesn’t feel guilty for screaming at you
Or confessing what he feels like is his failure
You promise him that you’ll stop, but you don’t want to stop
You want to keep going
Or that light would be gone… and the dark would come back and this time it would engulf you forever with no ways out.
And he catches you again and again, and at some point you stop hiding
He stops yelling at you… and you wonder if he’s given up, but the truth is that he hasn’t.

He still cries when he thinks your not looking, he cries while he cleans up the mess you’ve made when you were high
And when he thinks your asleep, he holds your hand and prays to the God that he doesn’t believe in
And begs him to take away your pain so you can stop hurting yourself
And then he begs for forgiveness for the sins he’s committed if that’s what’s causing you to hurt yourself
You want to tell him it’s not his fault
And you want to tell him that you’re sorry
But you really can’t stop… you can’t stop

in Junsu's Point Of View
i especially like the part i bolded
naimu (naimu) wrote in yoosu_yongwonhi,@ 2007-09-03 21:56:00

its a nice fanfiction
dang i'm getting hooked on fiction :/
i should return to the facts

7:55 PM

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